reignfire

I’m looking through a few local “blogs” most of which don’t really blog about anything except post some random pictures or youtube links and then expect to compete in the same as other ‘real’ blogs. I mean wtf should they even call them blogs, they should stick to tumblr since i understand that platform is about video and image links anyway. Blogs should contain written words of wisdom or whatnot that have more than just one damn paragraph. Of course a few youtube links is fine every now and then.

Like this.

Or this.

Ha.

I don’t want to point out those sites. I realise part of the reason i don’t even blog much anymore is that i usually speak my mind about things and people get offended like i can’t voice out my own opinions. Shit i’ve gotten in trouble because of my posts more often than i can remember during my active years. It wasn’t always fun but most of posts got my point across and those people who got offended probably deserved it anyway, you know how they say the truth hurts and become defensive by being in denial then lash out in anger. I’ve grown up alot since then so I’m trying my best to minimize any name callings but siapa terasa itu engkau punya pasal lah.

With the way things are going on lately, I don’t think I can trust anyone. People lie, cheat, steal and manipulate you. It doesn’t even matter who they are… friends… family.. coworkers. It’s all bullshit and I’m just really fed up with all that. What I want in life right now is to just find someone to share my life with, a family to nurture, a job or career I can enjoy till i’m freakin’ old and devote my time to God then just die peacefully.

I do not like being around beta males. I do not like hanging around “nice guys” who are just nice on the outside but shit on the inside. I’m tired of being friends with guys who do not know what to do with their lives. I’m really fucking tired of being backstabbed by guys who i used to call my friends. I hate hanging around people who are negative the most. It is these types of guys that always give me grief. So I’m going to try my best to cleanse myself of these type of people.

I’m always suspicious when a friend acts all nice towards me, it just means they did something wrong and to them being nice justifies for their wrongdoings. I’m speaking from experience. Seriously need to watch who i befriend these days.

There goes my Sunday. It was raining all day and I woke up at noon then went to sleep after an hour or so. It’s a holiday Monday tomorrow so I think I’ll try to get start a few of my projects started.

Slept all day. Lazy Sunday indeed. Anyway, found a new song to add to my ipodtouch. Where was this song years ago. Heh.

Where do I start off? I haven’t been blogging in such a long long time. My facebook seems to have replaced any semblance of blogging. I post alot of pictures on it on my day to day activities. I guess pictures tell a thousand words.

I’ve been single for over two years. My choice to be honest, I feel the need to sort out all the stuff that I need to fix or improve in life. I’ve been more interested in improving my social life and i’m sure eventually i’ll sort out the other three important factors of my life. I’m not sure if i should log my journey through life with a blog. Privacy has been quite a concern for me but we shall see how things go.

I am not the same as I was before. Every day I strive to improve my life and to rise from the ashes of my past and no one is going to stand in my way. Believe you me.